Sunday, February 21, 2021

This is very vulnerable and scary to share for me

 Hi there, happy Sunday!

I want to tell you something really, really vulnerable, and it’s scary for me to share this here. But I feel like I NEED to share it. And I’m telling you not so that you’ll feel sorry for me, but for a specific reason, and you’ll see in a minute why.

Ready? Okay... Deep breath... Here it goes:

My childhood was pretty rough. I grew up in a house where our grandparents lived with us, and my grandfather was literally an alcoholic axe murderer. He had killed several of his pets in a rage, and he kept threatening to kill his wife, our grandma. I was and still am a very sensitive soul who picks up on everyone’s feelings, so you can imagine how my nervous system was on high alert all. the. time.

My mom and dad had four children within six years when they were still very young, and they were super overwhelmed and financially struggling a lot. My mom was depressed, distant and bitter, and my dad was unpredictable and controlling. I can’t remember either of them ever hugging me or telling me they loved me.

I was always a “good girl”, bringing home straight A’s and excelling in sports, but I never got praised for it. In fact, I got criticized frequently for anything that was less than perfect. And even though I was good and obeyed all the rules, whenever one of us four kids (all girls) did anything wrong, my father beat all four of us. This was supposed to build character.

I could tell you story after heartbreaking story, but I don’t think I need to. You get the picture.

As a result of all these experiences, I believed in my bones that I am never good enough, that I am not worthy, that I am not wanted, and that I am not safe. These beliefs have been core wounds of mine that cut very, very deep, and they created destructive and painful patterns in my life.

And this is why I'm sharing this with you:
If you have some of these same core wounds, you know how devastating it feels when you are being attacked or shamed by someone, or when you don’t feel appreciated or valued. You know how incredibly painful it is when you feel that you are not wanted or don't belong.

This last week, I felt attacked and shamed by someone I trusted. You know that feeling when you are really triggered, like you are gut punched? I swear, when that person confronted me with her wagging finger (just like my parents used to do), I literally felt my face burning with shame. It turned beet red, and I wanted to disappear in the earth. Or start throwing punches and attacking with a vengeance.

I’ve talked with many of my coaching clients who have had these experiences of being triggered, being emotionally or psychically gut punched.  In the aftermath of that, it can literally feel like you are crazy or losing your mind, right? It’s the worst feeling!

We believe what the other person is saying about us is true, because this is what we learned when we were little. See? I am indeed not good enough, I am indeed not worthy, I am not wanted, and I am sure as hell not safe.

And then maybe there’s another part of you that doesn’t believe it, or that pushes back against it.

But it’s all just such a big balled-up mess, all smooshed together, and it’s painful, and it’s shameful, and it’s heartbreaking, and it’s confusing, and sad, and depressing, and hopeless, and it pisses you off, and you feel like you are going nuts.

And this is why I’m sharing this with you: There is actually a way out of this! Read on.

For me, in the past during the scenario where that person attacked me, I would have gone down a terrible shame spiral, and then I would have either hidden and felt completely resentful and not ever extended myself to someone again, hidden my light and played small.

Or I would have puffed up like a gladiator and wanted to beat the shit out of them. Not really, but you know what I mean? I would have attacked them with my words, yelled, cut them off and tried to get back at them, or completely severed the relationship.

That would have created a whole other mess and not worked in the long term.

Instead, I was able to calm myself down. I was able to stay more objective and see what was really going on. I didn’t blow up the relationship with this attacking person. I then reached out for support from people I trust, and they were able to mirror back to me the truth, which was immensely helpful. This way of showing up left my self worth and self esteem intact instead of destroying it. In fact, it got strengthened through this whole ordeal.

And this shift, this transformation is something everyone can learn. If I, the damaged, messed up Corina, can learn it, you can, too. I have immersed myself in the work of transforming my old beliefs and painful patterns for a while now, and I've created amazing, almost miraculous results because of it.

But I couldn't do this by myself, and chances are if you are reading this, you can't either. And there's nothing wrong with that! We all need support, we need accountability, we need tools and practices and a system.

I would absolutely love to support you and teach you this system. It’s actually a step-by-step process that’s incredibly effective and powerful.

You can either do this through one-on-one coaching with me, or in my much more affordable online group coaching program that starts March 1st. I want to invite you from the bottom of my heart to participate in it, because it’s so powerful and life changing, and I know it works, because I use it every day.

The early bird pricing ends in two days, so I encourage you to check it out, look at my program, read the testimonials, and come join us!


What are you struggling with most, and what do you want to transform?
Come join us before the early bird pricing ends!

Saturday, February 13, 2021

Finding joy in nature

If you have followed us for a while, you know that we live and breathe for and in and with Nature. Nature is our spiritual renewal, our reason for being. If there's a day when I can't go outside, I get grumpy.

That's one of the reasons we lived tucked away in a wilderness valley for so long, and that's why we chose our next place to live, which is filled with diverse natural beauty. We are spending as much time in it as we can.

Steve and I are lucky to be self-employed. We live simpler than many people, so we can get by with less, and spend our time playing outside.

For example, this past week was filled with many different activities - either squeezed in before or after work, or when the kids had a snow day. The best thing about this is that these adventures also serve as a way to connect as family.

The first few pictures below are from two different hikes to lakes in the area.


We also had a day of fun at Mount Baker with two of our kids. The third kid has been missing on our outings more and more, since he turned 18 and is much more self sufficient, finishing his Senior year and working. We miss him but know that this is a normal part of separation from his boring, old parents and annoying little sister and brother...

We usually only to go to Mount Baker in the summer and fall for glorious hikes, but we decided to check out the ski area. We don't downhill ski, mostly because I'm too cheap to pay for it, so we concentrate on cross country-skiing, snow shoeing and sledding.

I can't believe how wonderful this area is in winter, especially when you go during the week instead of the busy weekends with lots of skiers.


And then there's the ocean! Oh, the ocean! And so many lakes to put your kayak and canoe in! And islands stretching to the horizon! 

Every direction you look, there's a new playground!

If you are looking at these pictures asking yourself, "Do these people ever work?" the answer is YES! We work a lot and really hard. And then we play really hard.

I want to share these pictures as inspiration to nudge you a little bit: to go outside more, breathe more deeply, find joy in the very, very simple things.  It doesn't have to be expensive or complicated. 

I will leave you with images from our week:

* Steve bottling the hard cider we made from all of our Marblemount apples

* Me modelling two of my sweaters that I knitted this month

I hope you are getting outside and that you're finding joy in the little things!

What are your favorite things to do outside in the winter?

Saturday, January 16, 2021

Guided to safe shore by our sons

We now officially have two sons with driver's licences: they can drive without supervision. Steve and I are taking full advantage of this new miracle of our sons being able to do us favors for a change.

For example: the other day, Steve and I put our kayaks in the bay just before sunset. We started paddling and were so blissed out that we decided to kayak all the way to Teddybear Cove near Bellingham. After a short phone call to our sons, we coordinated with them to pick up the truck and get us at the cove, which required that the two of them drive.

By the time we got near shore, it was pitch black with only a tiny sliver of moon. Our sons blinked their flashlights at us so we could see where we needed to go. As I sunk my paddles into the inky water, I fought back tears because this felt so momentous: our sons guiding us safely to shore, picking us up, keeping us safe.


Ever since moving away from our beloved Marblemount wilderness and down into the Skagit Flats, we've spent as much time on the salt water as we can. It's magical here. It's a whole different wilderness, one I'm not as familiar or comfortable with, but I vow to change that by exposing myself to it as much as I can.

I burnt the heck out of my thighs a few days ago, which left me with blistering, second degree burns and an inability to walk much. But I can sit in a kayak and use my arms, and so I do, even in the pitch black if need be.

 We try to incorporate our kids into these adventures as much as they let us. For the boys, of course, it's not particularly cool to hang out with their parents and paddle around in little boats that don't involve speed. We tell them that it's a great upper body workout, so they consent to come with us, especially when there are lavish picnics involved.

And Eva doesn't quite have the muscles yet to brave large stretches and distances of water. But she gets to sit in the canoe (I traded that canoe for coaching sessions years ago), and one of her brothers and Dad paddle for her, while she sits in the middle like a Queen, chatting and singing the whole way.

I love these times on the water with my family. I know the days for this are numbered, with them surely flying the nest one by one.


And you? How are you doing? What are your favorite activities to connect with family?

Saturday, January 2, 2021

How my sister can help your pet (alive or dead)

My sister Kerstin (whom we all call Pepe) is a gifted animal communicator. If it weren't for her, I wouldn't have gotten over my grief when my beloved dog Chowder died. 

She also helped me on New Year's Eve, when my pup Hazel was sick, shaking and crying. Something was terribly wrong with her, and I got hit with PTSD because this is what happened to Chowder before he died.

We immediately took Hazel to the vet, and I called Pepe. She asked me to email her a picture of Hazel. 15 minutes later, she told me that Hazel's tummy was inflamed, and so was her right ear.

One hour later, the vet had done a test for pancreatitis (negative) and various blood tests. He diagnosed Hazel with an ear infection (the right ear) and dehydration, gave her an IV, and send us home advising us to feed her bland food for a while.

Pepe in the meantime found out that Hazel reacted to the rich goose meat we had fed her the night before, and she gave us instructions how to feed her from now on. No more dry kibble food.

Every single time I've asked Pepe for help with my animals (dead or alive), she was able to help me and my pets. I do think she has a gift, although she says everyone can learn this.

I wanted to let you know about her, so you can get help if you have problems with one of your pets. 


Here's her website. 


Unfortunately, it's in German, but if you decide to ask her for help, I can translate. Just reply to this, and I'll get you guys in touch.

Here's what she specializes in:

- Animal communication, where you get to ask 5 questions

- Body scan, where she detects what's going on inside

- Messages from you deceased pet

- Energetic hospice care for animals

- Energetic healing/quantum energy healing

- Emotional problem behavior identification and problem solving

- Shamanic totem animal retrieval

So if you decide you want Pepe's help, let me know, and I'll be your translator!

Her prices are incredibly reasonable, by the way!!!


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